(loud)silence

… that when we’re younger, we would always try our best to fit it. Usually, we’d want to be able to play for the “popular team”. I was one of those people; the one trying not the one playing. I didn’t have lots of friends during my entire school years. Pretty much the same when I was in college. I’ve been called names when I was in Elementary school and again when I was in High School. Difference is, when I was in Elementary school, they made me cry. In High School? I punch them in the face. No joke. 
Earlier, out of nowhere, I saw the name of the last person who called me names on my Facebook feed (she left a comment on a friend’s photo). The one who called me fat and that’s probably the reason why I was still single; because no guy wants a fat girl. Or so her tiny, rotten little brain thought. Everything she said about me - behind my back of course (because bitches like her usually just talk the talk - didn’t even have the guts to see me when I told her I wanna talk to her face to face. PSSSH!) - came rushing back. But now, I’m able to smile about it. Why? Because I realized that people like that shouldn’t upset you, they should make you feel thankful for your life. Because you’re much better than her and others alike. Because I am much better than her. I’ve always been better. 
And I am happy now. As for her? Well … let’s just say I’m the one that is having the last laugh in the this little play. 

So, bitch, you can kiss my happy ass now.

:)

Okay. First of all, lemme just say how it’s starting to feel weird to get questions about relationships especially when y’all just keep going under anonymous. Either because you have no tumblr or because you’re afraid I’mma hunt you down or something — which I’m not gonna. I might seem crazy every now and then, but I ain’t gonna creep people out. XD

Anyways …
I do appreciate the questions.
It’s just better if I - at least - know your names.
:)

Sejujurnya, aku ga tau. HAHA. *ditampar*
Um … gimana ya … kalo aku sih kemaren ga lama ngeyakinin keluarga. Awalnya si mama emang mendadak punya tagline sendiri, “KENAPA BULE SIH?! KENAPA GAK ORANG BATAK AJA?!”
She kept saying that almost every hour for - I think - a week. Even after Pete came to see me for the first time in April, dia masih nanya apa kita ga bisa putus aja so that she can hook me up with some Batak guy just like what she’s been doing for years since I was twenty years old.
True story.

But it all stopped when she realized that I actually want this to work (which was after 3 weeks). That he was actually making the efforts to show that he wants the same thing.

Now, the question is, do YOU? Want your relationship to work, that is. Iya tau, udah pacaran 3 taun, but … I’ve seen people being together for over 7 years only to say goodbye. Sad, but true. Karena, kalian harus ngebuktiin ke banyak orang kalo kalian emang pengen bersama. *aeeeh 8D *
It might take a lot of work. Gak cuma dari kamu, tapi juga dari pasangan kamu. Jangan sampe’ cuma kamu aja yang berusaha mempertahankan hubungan dan ngeyakinin keluarga, sementara dia … angin-anginan.

Aku sih selalu percaya orangtua tuh sebenernya cuma mau yang terbaik buat anak-anaknya. Saking pengen yang terbaiknya, kadang mereka gak ngasih kesempatan anak-anaknya untuk ngelakuin kesalahan biar bisa belajar dari situ. Dan karena mereka ga mau anak-anaknya salah pilih, they tend to make them to choose something based on what they (the parents) know.

*mendadak merasa seperti orangtua*
*kemudian ngunyah sirih*
XD

Last but not least, try to find an understanding and more open-minded family member that you can talk to. My aunts helped a lot when I needed my mom to understand about why I wanna be with Pete. And thankfully, mereka-mereka itu memang salah tiga dari sedikit orang di dunia ini yang pendapatnya selalu didenger ama si mama. They comforted her and told her that it’s not fair for me to sacrifice my happiness just because she doesn’t want me to be with someone who doesn’t come from a Batak family. 
*kemudian terharu*
X’D

So, yeah … that’s all I guess.
Good luck!
:)

If both contributes the same effort to make it work. As simple as that. The minute you feel that you’re the only one working for it, that’s when you should stop and think about the whole thing. If you still want to keep going or not. That’s attitude and habit wise. But when you’re in a relationship with someone who abuses you physically or mentally, I’ll tell you right away that it’s not worth it. Not. Even. A. Little. Bit. YOU HEAR ME? Okay.
Just in case. 

Point is, every relationship - every single one in your life - works both ways. No matter what it is. If it starts to change to a one way street, stop. Either you’re being taken for granted or … you’re being taken for granted. 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Cerita di Twitter? Nggak ah. Malu :”>
Cukup baca-baca aja deh cerita orang-orang.
Ntar deh ya, tanggal 24 Desember ini, aku bikin postingannya.
HAHAHA.
*sok penting lo, ‘nyet!*
XD
Tapi nggak sih. Gak perlu ada yang nanya beginian juga bakal tetep ada postingannya. HEHEHE. 

Kenapa harus tanggal 24?
Nanti bakal tau sendiri kenapa.
:D

Ayo ayo, dilingkarin kalendernya biar gak ketinggalan.
#MUATAMU
XD

Okay. So here’s a confession. It wasn’t until a few days ago when a co-worker slash good friend of mine, Fata, showed me a video of Bruno Mars singing “Grenade” that I noticed how ridiculously stupid the lyrics to that song. You can google the lyrics to that song if you want. Though I doubt it. Because from my search results, all I see is love for this song. Like, how romantic it is to have a guy who is stupid enough to catch a grenade, throw his hand on a blade and jump in front of train for a girl who treats him like trash. 

Even as a girl, I find that pathetic. Those kind of words is just fake and ain’t gonna be a turn on for me. Come on, Bruno. SERIOUSLY?! I can be masochistic to at times, but not like that, man. If I am planning to kill myself, it would be suicide. Not because I was trying to save a guy who - I KNOW - doesn’t give a fuck about me. 

DUDE! Come on. 

Then, I stumbled to this guy’s video on YouTube which basically said all of the reasons why I think the song is stupid. 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

“ I don’t think it’s cute at all. I think it’s pathetic. I think it’s annoying. I think it’s fucking depressing. “

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA *again*

3.25 minutes of good laugh for me. And I’ve been repeating this video for over 5 times still laughing my ass off. 

THANK YOU, KINGSLEY!

YOU DA BITCH, HOMIE! 

=)) =))

PS : Don’t get me wrong. I don’t think Bruno is bad singer. He sounds good. I’m actually hooked on “Just The Way You Are”. Now, THAT is a sweet song. That’ll make most girl strip naked and hump you real good, Bruno. Trust me. I just can be quite a critical bitch when it comes to song lyrics. Sorry. 

Peace out, Bruno Mars fans.

Oh, and do check out Kingsley video about Justin Bieber. HAHAHAHAHA. HE GOT A BIEBER POSTER ON HIS WAAAAALLLLL!

*roflmao*

That dude can be the next Chris Rock for all I know. Sensing he’s gay, so that’ll make him a gay Chris Rock in the future. Which is better, my friends. Trust me. 

Cheers.

x