(loud)silence

I Can Not Think

Mon, 28 May 2012 09:58:00 -0400

… of anything else other than my visa since Pete flew back to the UK on the 12th of May. And before I started writing this post, I opened the calendar on my laptop to count the days. We submitted the visa application on the 9th, and just because, I started counting from the 10th (instead of the day before, where we officially handed out our documents/papers).
What’s been feeling like centuries, turns out to be only 13 days, because it will take from 3 weeks to 3 months of working days for a visa to be process, something that I - well, probably we - forgot.

It’s only been 13 days. Not even 2 weeks. But … it feels like … forever to me.

My mom’s been trying to cheer me up by telling me that it will all be okay and that this is something I chose so I have to chin up and face it. She’s right. This is my choice.
It’s just … really hard to not just break down and be upset at time, sometimes. The 24 hours a day, the 7 days a week … I’m finding it really hard to not hate you guys right now. Sorry.

Last night, we (me and Pete) joked about how awesome it would be if today we found out that my visa is out because today, exactly a month ago, was our wedding.
It’s our first monthniversary (yeah, I just made up that word. Whatever).
But … I guess … that won’t be happening.
I got another 8 (working) days left to wait before I start freaking out, panicking or to just simply think the worst.

We just … want to be together, VFS and the UK Embassy.
Just that.
If you guys could see how difficult it has been for us to be apart from each other …..
To be married and not knowing when we could see and hug each other again.
If only you could see ……….

Just a Random Note.

Sun, 27 May 2012 10:44:36 -0400

I am ridiculously annoyed by this whole Lady Gaga thing. Not because I’m a fan but because I feel sorry for all of her fans who got all excited for the concert, waited in line for hours to get the tickets only to know that her management decided to cancel her show due to security reasons. And by “security reason” of course I’m talking about them bunch of religious goats who are sure that the rest of Indonesia’s population is as brain-dead as they are and will copy everything they see or hear, right away, no filters.

A bunch of religious, holier - than - thou, fanatics are telling the officials - the law, basically, of what they should/should not do instead of just letting people choose what they think is right/better for them and leave the whole “sin” thing to each and every individual.

I can’t imagine if it was my favorite band/musician. I’d be heartbroken.

So, Indonesian Little Monsters, despite of our differences in musical taste, I’m deeply sorry for the cancellation. I know one person - who happens to be my best friend - who is really sad about it. And being a concert whore myself, I can relate.

And FPI, one day Marilyn Manson, Rammstein and Dimmu Borgir will probably visit Indonesia and THEN you’ll see what - you call - “satanic” really is. AAAAND, if I’m still in Indonesia, I’mma be at the front row, rubbing it to your ugly looking faces.

There.

hi Unee. I don't know why but I have to say this: Been years (I think) I followed you on Twitter and Tumblr. Since you were single (and galau. pffttt!) and now you're already married! Wow! WOW!!! :') congratulation Unee! <3 you're a lovely person, you know. I'm officially a fan of you now. Oh yea, i'm a girl who wish I could have a fairy tale just like you. And errrr... sorry about the grammar X"))))

Thu, 24 May 2012 10:27:00 -0400

Hi, Anon. Ah, you no say your name laah … so I still don’t know who you areee~~ 8)) Terimakasih sudah tahan “mengikuti” saya selama ini. Iya, dulu galau *ngaku*. Sekarang gak galau lagi, karena yang bikin galau udah jadi suamik. #EAAAAA #SUOMBONG X)))))

Hadeeeh … no faaaaan. Ay don laik feeeen … Kayak siapa aja gitu kesannya. haha. Plisdeh.
And, girl … if anything, my story is far from one. I don’t have a fairy tale. I didn’t have any glass slippers, Pete didn’t come on a white horse, and I obviously don’t have a fairy god mother. We fought (hard) to be where we are now and we’re still fighting to get where we want to in the future (I WANT MY VISAAAAA! X’))) …). They don’t really fight in fairy tales. They just got it all sorted out, somehow (by fairy god mothers and unacceptable coincidences :p).
So, it could happen to you too, y’know? :)

Thank you for the congrats and for thinking I’m a lovely person. I’m not really. Go ask Pete. XD
Don’t worry, your grammar’s fine.
:)

BECAUSE I'M BORED. THAT'S WHY! XD

Mon, 21 May 2012 10:10:16 -0400

What is your middle name? Wahyuni.

What are you passionate about? Photography, film, music and … traveling.

Zebra or leopard print? Neither.

Do you have any fears? Of course. And you didn’t ask what they are so, I’m not gonna explain. XD

Top three places to visit? NEW YORK, Rome and Korea.

Where are you from? Medan, North Sumatra, Indonesia. REPRESENT! 8)))

First career you wanted as a child? I wanted to be a lot of things when I was a child. It changes daily. But the one thing I REALLY wanted for quite a long while was to be a flight attendant. :”>

What’s your sign? Leo.

Future names of your children? I’ve always liked the name Catherine for a girl and Benjamin for a boy. LOL. No. SRSLY.

What are you listening to right now? John Mayer’s Shadow Days (GREAT SONG if I may say so myself).

What are your career goals? I’d like to run my own magazine, direct a film and travel the world.

Do you believe in fate/destiny? No. I believe in hard work.

What is your favorite colour? Black. Or other “normal” colors like brown, blue, green. Nothing neon-ish or too bright.

What is your favorite flower? White rose.

What was the first concert/show you attended? An Indonesian rock band called /rif.

Something you are working on right now? This questionnaire (?) and my future online magazine. Well — I’m forcing myself to start working on it. XD

Have you ever had a near-death experience? Yeah. My house was robbed when I was 5 or 6 y.o. Two of my maids (at that time) got stabbed and I managed to run out of the house and screamed for help. I don’t know about you, but for me, that was a near-death experience. Well, at least one that I can share with people. :P

Are you a procrastinator or do you get things done early? Depends on what “things” I need to work on. I’m going to say, I’m balanced. :D

Left or right handed? Right.

TV shows and anime you watch regularly? FRIENDS (yes, even until now. BECAUSE THEY’RE AWESOME), Criminal Minds, Will & Grace (you didn’t say they need to still be aired, right? XD), Lie To Me, 2 Broke Girls, The Big Bang Theory, The Walking Dead (!), Grey’s Anatomy, E.R, House, and tons more I can’t remember right now.

Halloween costume idea for this year? Not sure. Never really “celebrated” Halloween.

What is your relationship status? Married.

Last movie you just watched? The Avengers (!!!).

A song that’s been stuck in your head? Christina Perri’s A Thousand Years. :”>

A book you ~~want to read~~/have recently read/~~are reading~~? Germaine Greer’s The Female Eunuch. And that’s not really “recent’. Reminder: need to start reading something again. -___-“

congratulations on your wedding unee. thanks for sharing stories about long-distance relationship. kinda motivated me in a way. never to let silly things such as distance ruin a relationship. especially when knowing that we're in a relationship with a person that's worth fighting for. thank you :)

Sun, 20 May 2012 11:01:56 -0400

Thank you, Giaaaan! Oh you and him will be just fine. I have faith in you guys. :)
Wait for me in Portsmouth yes? Once I got my visa and I’m there, I demand a meet up!
:)
xo

The Last Q Made Me LMFAO! X)))

Sat, 19 May 2012 10:02:00 -0400

Anooooon huhuhuhuhu *halah*
Ma’acih eaaa, qq … #dibakar XD
Ah, kamu nih. Bisa aja. :”>
Thank you for watching tho’. :)

Um … apa ya … I don’t really know how to answer this.
Emang kita baru sekali ketemu sebelum dia ngelamar, but — what I saw in him wasn’t how many times he came to visit, but how he was when he was here the first time. Gimana dia waktu ketemu nyokap dan abang gue juga sodara-sodara gue yang lain. Gimana dia waktu nemenin bokap gue yang waktu itu ada di rumah sakit. Gimana dia gak cuma bisa ngomong tapi juga ngebuktiin apa yang dia omongin. Dan, kita juga kenalnya udah lama. We talk everyday and talked about everything. Walau udah 2 taun ga komunikasi, tapi waktu kita komunikasi lagi, gue ngerasa dia tetep dia yang dulu *TSAH!*. Bedanya, dia yang sekarang ga lagi gampang dikalahin ama jarak. :)
Trust is earned, hun. Not - and never - given. To earn something, you gotta work for it.
He did - and still is working - for it. Same goes for me.
Kenapa lo ga bisa percaya ama cowo lo …. YAMANAGUETAU?! X))))
I’m sorry, I can’t help you at all with that.

THANK YOU, FRIENDLY STRANGER!
Glad you liked the video.
:D

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAREYOUFUCKINGKIDDINGMEHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Well, anon … It’s good to know one of YOUR life principles, but sorry to break your heart, IT’S NOT ONE OF MINE. XD

I do know that there are some people (women in particular) who’s willing to do that, and I’m guessing your one of them (LOL!), but no — I didn’t marry him for his money.
Because, I was born in a family where we use 100.000 IDR bills to wipe our ass after we poop. So.

Kalo gue mau tinggal di luar negeri mah, gampang. Pake duit sendiri juga bisa. Mau tinggal di luar planet bumi juga masih ada kembalian duit gue mah. XD
So again, no. I didn’t marry him for the money. I marry him because he’s my best friend and I couldn’t picture my future with anyone else but him.

And no, none taken.

PS:
It’s “offense”, not “ofense”.
Kamu nanti susah dapet bule kaya yang sudi nikahin kamu, nak … kalo nulis “offense” aja gak tau. :)

Hi Yuni, congrats for your wedding ya... cantik banget pas jadi penganten. serius pangling in a good way :) udah beberapa lama follow kamu di twitter, tapi kok malu ya say hi. suka baca blogs kamu yang seru dan inspiring without judging and i know that you survive the LDR. i have similar story like you and i do wish it will end up like you, in a marriage :) regards, Inka

Fri, 18 May 2012 00:57:44 -0400

Hi Inka!
Haha. Itu karena ngeliat di poto kali, makanya keliatan cantik (pake “banget” pula XD). Aslinya mah kemaren, amit - amit. X)))

Ah, kamu … Pake baju dulu dong makanya biar ga malu. #muatamu XD
Do say hi though. I’m not as scary as *some* people think. I can actually be tame and friendly. LOL.
Oh? Good luck to you then! It takes work, but if you two are going at the same direction and equally committed to it, nothing is impossible. :)
GOOD LUCK AGAIN!
x

PS: Seriously. Do say hi. :)

Not the best video ever made, that’s for sure, but in this...

Fri, 18 May 2012 00:49:15 -0400

Not the best video ever made, that’s for sure, but in this … less than 5 minutes video is a story of 3 years. So, gimme some credit, bitches! XD

And, by “Not exactly the wedding they wanted”, I meant that we didn’t really want it to be that huge and … time consuming. :|
But then again, who careeeeees~~
X))

So, yeah.

So ... HI GUYS! 8))

Sun, 13 May 2012 10:38:18 -0400

Hey, sweets!
Haha. Good to know at least one person found this tumblr, somewhat, entertaining. I visited your tumblr before replying this and saw a couple of Before Sunset’s photos. I love, LOVE, LOOOOOVE that film. HIGH FIVE! :D
And yes, I love Miiko. She’s such an annoying sweetheart, isn’t she? HAHA. Dulu sempet baca Yotsuba juga kok. Tapi - kalo ga salah inget - ketinggalan beberapa nomer gitu, males nyari dan jadi ga baca lagi. :|
And thank you for liking my “style” of writing - some people are annoyed by it. LOL. But, you might want to change the word “brave” with “seenak jidat”. More appropriate.
Not looking for fans (never do, actually). I am always looking for new friends. So, be my (new) friend instead. :)
x

Halo, Mbak Iraz (?).
Ebuset. HAHA. Itu yang di blogspot … yang mana ya? Saking banyak dan udah lamanya ngeblog (TSAAAH), suka lupa sendiri. HAHA.
Tapi kalo yang ada (banyak) ngomongin soal AI, itu kayaknya blog 3 taunan yang lalu yak? Sabar banget bacain tulisan saya selama itu? Semoga tidak berefek traumatis ya? Ngahahahaha.

Aduh. Gimana caranya bisa ekspresif?
*garuk-garuk kepala*
Harusnya nanya beginian ama yang udah nerbitin buku gitu. Minimal seleptuit yang tweet-tweetnya udah dijadiin buku deh.
IHIK …
X))
I’m (very) used to honesty and asking myself whether I’m willing to be held responsible on my own words before I say anything. I don’t - and never - consider myself expressive. Ever. I’m just — well, honest.
Kalo suka ya suka, kalo nggak ya nggak. Dan selalu punya alasan kenapa suka/nggak.
BUT, I always feel like I communicate better in writing. Kalo ketemu aslinya, biasanya sih garing dan annoying. LOL.
Maybe it’s because, kalo ketemu orang baru, saya gak langsung ngerasa nyaman, jadi masih lebih milih untuk diem aja. That and the fact that I tend to offend people with most of the things I say, not intentionally though. It’s kinda like a gift. XD
Jadi … kalo ditanya gimana caranya bisa ekspresif, my best answer would be to just be honest in what you think and always have a reason for every opinion. Don’t say things just because you can say them or because other people are saying it and they want you to say it as well. Because that’s how and the best way for you to “express” yourself.
*ecieee jawaban gueeeee HAHA*
XD

Thank you, Anon.
When I’ll be moving to the UK depends on when my visa will be issued. According to them (VFS), it will take from 3 weeks to 3 months. Of the latter is not the one I’m expecting, but — if I have to wait that long, so be it. As long as I got my visa. Hehe.

Anon #2,
you must be new here.
I believe I’ve answered similar questions like this. I never said I know it all.
Whatever I said/wrote here - or in my other blog (s) - are based on the things that I do know.
Like, when I said long distance relationship isn’t necessarily the problem, it’s the one you’re having it with; I speak based on facts and personal experiences.
So, if you can’t differentiate personal opinions (based on personal experiences) and someone holding a lecture and claiming to be an expert in something, there’s no use (for me) to continue this.

IS THAT YOU, BRADLEY COOPER?
I’m sorry I broke your heart.
LOL.

Haha. Iya iya … ntar yaa … Pasti di update kok. :)
Udah gak sibuk jadi pengantin baru lagi. Suaminya udah mudik. Istrinya sendirian.
*gandeng Jude Law*
*kemudian ditalak 3*
X))))
Terima kasiiiiih … Amiiin … Iya, semoga bahagia selalu. :D
I’m glad that it’s inspiring (at least) one person.
HAHA.

Maybe I'm Just Weird (part II)

Wed, 21 Mar 2012 11:53:00 -0400

Again, these are the things I just don’t get ~~sometimes~~ most of the time (this time it’s not just in relationships. So.):

Clingy couples. And when I say clingy I mean CLING to the fuckin’ Y. The ones that demands the other person to keep him/her updated every 5 minutes. “Babe, I’m eating” - “Babe, I’m drinking a glass of water” - “Babe, I’m picking my nose” - “Babe, I just farted” - “Babe, I’m taking a dump”. I mean, WHY? I mean, don’t get me wrong, I’d like to know what my fiance is doing but — NOT EVERY 5 MINUTES. Lord have mercy to people who is with people like that.
I noticed how the term,”anak durhaka” or - excuse me if I translated that wrong - “rebellious child” is seriously overused here in Indonesia. That’s like the best “get-away (with anything)” card every parents use to get their kids to do whatever the fuck they want. Even if that isn’t what the child wants or it’s not something that makes or will make them happy. It’s like, it’s better for them not to be happy just as long as they’re not being a “anak durhaka”. How does that even make sense?
Related to point number 2, when the child says no or has a better argument than the parents, the latter will most likely use the line,”I know what’s best for you”. THAT is also overused. Some things you, parents, does know better but knowing better doesn’t mean it’s the best. And what’s best for YOU doesn’t necessarily means it’s best for your kids. I know I’m not a parent (yet), but - and I’ve told le fiance about this - I will try my best to not say that to my kids. Especially when it’s purely because I needed my ego to be polished. I even gave permission to the future husband to give me a bitch-slap if I ever do that. 8)))
Famous people. Oh how fame could really turn people to a complete snob. “Oh~~ I’m too famous to talk you” or “I’m too famous to even look at you”. Well guess what, here’s a reality check; FAME DOES NOT LAST. Keep that attitude up and when (your) fame’s light is out, I - personally - will ask you,”SO! How’s being a HAS BEEN feels?” And no, no — I ain’t jealous of your fame, because
The obsession - yes, obsession - to have a bule boy/girlfriend. Okay. I might need a minute here because I feel like …. BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Okay. Laughing done. A few days ago a, somewhat, similar topic came up when I was talking to a girl from Twitter that I consider friend (no, no names because I don’t think she’ll like it). Reminded me of a ~~couple~~ lot of people that I know in real life who suddenly came up to me - including the ones that are total strangers but somehow found out about my current dating life (oh scary world we’re living now~) - and started asking me question about HOW to get a bule boyfriend and if I could FIND THEM ONE.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
And when I asked them why, most of them answered,”Because I’ve always wanted to date a bule”. Second best answer was,”Because they’re cuter” (woman, you DO realize that there are A LOT of unattractive bule out there, right? XD). Third best was,”So I can show him off in front of my friends and family”. Errr ……..
I always believe that the right amount of obsession is good for a person; it will give them passion to get what they’re obsessing about, but this particular obsession is … kind of scary. XD
But! Nonetheless! GOOD LUCK WITH THAT! \o/
Sorry I can’t help you because the last time I checked, pimpin’ isn’t something I do … for free. X))))))
I don’t always expect people to agree with me on everything because, seriously, where’s the fun in that. So if you feel like I should agree with you on everything and then throw me a tantrum when I don’t, don’t wait for me to give you even a single fuck because, baby, I ain’t got any. We clear? Okay.

And just incase you missed part I.
And I wasn’t planning to have a part II but hey, whaddaya know!
8))

Holla~ 8))

Sun, 18 Mar 2012 10:50:00 -0400

DINAAAAAH~~
Haha! ‘sup, gurl?! How the hell did you find this tumblr? X))
Yes, yes. I’m on tumblr. This is (one of the many places) where I ramble about crap. XD
I’m good. Sent you a message on facebook btw.
You take care now, gorgeous.
:*

Hello, anon.
Makasih udah mau baca. Hehehe.
Iya, ketemunya online. But first thing’s first, okay?
The thing is with “meeting” someone online, either you or the other person can say whatever you want to each other; how you love the other person or how you’re willing to do anything for that person. Amirite?
The problem is when you’re required to walk the walk and no longer needed to talk the talk. You feeling me?
So he can say whatever he wants or whatever you want to hear, but if it was me, words are only words. It’s the action that counts.
Tunangan aku mutusin untuk dateng ke Medan tanpa aku minta. Itu belum ngebuktiin apa-apa tapi dia udah nunjukkin kalo dia nggak cuma bisa ngomong dan aku sangat, SANGAT, menghargai itu. When he came back and put this ring around my finger, that’s when shit got serious. XD
So, you see … it takes more than just words to have/keep a relationship.
Kalo ditanya “gimana dong?”, jawabannya bukan ada di aku, tapi di kamu. Apa yang aku bilang barusan itu cuma perbandingan aja. Kalo kamu ngerasa cukup dengan hubungan (kalian) yang “begini-begini aja”, who am I to tell you what you should do?
It’s your call really.
:)

Anon #2,
I don’t really have a definition of “romance”, especially if you’re looking for one of those movie-like definitions. Because to me, it’s more than just a romantic dinner, flowers and chocolates on ~~that over-rated~~ Valentine’s Day.
If I have to define romance it would be, when I can just enjoy silence with him (my fiance), which I can. Or when spend time talking about random things in life - in general - and in our lives specifically. Or when we’re watching a film together.
Yes, I’m an easy to please kind a girl like that.
XD
Two of the most romantic things he’d done for me (aside from getting on one knees and proposing, which is a general “romantic thing to do”, I guess) are:

Staying with me at the hospital when my dad had his first blood transfusion. He just got here around noon and haven’t had any rest but he stayed with me until, like, 10 am. Waited until the nurse told us that the medicine they gave to my dad worked fine and he’s blood pressure was stable. While we wait, we had dinner at one of the street vendors - we call it “warkop” here - nearby the hospital, which is FAR from a fancy restaurant but he was willing to do that for and with me. Yeah, I know, he’s pretty awesome, isn’t he? X’))
Giving me all of his support in everything I do. I don’t really have a lot of people believing in what I do or in what I’m capable of doing, but he does. He reminds me almost every time that I can do so much more than I believe I can. To me, that means more than flowers or whatever. So. Yeah.

- the end -

Something le fiance wrote in our shared blog another blog. I...

Tue, 06 Mar 2012 09:07:00 -0500

Something le fiance wrote in ~~our shared blo~~g another blog. I sure hope he was talking about me and not Jennifer Aniston.
XD

So yeah.
If you’re one of those people who still religiously stalk my tumblr to see how we’re doing and hoping things will go to shit with us, guess what? I’ll get to say, “BITE ME!” to you.
And in around 7 weeks time, we’ll be married.
MWAHAHAHAHAHA!

Yeah.
Sucks to be the loser, isn’t it?
8D

I think you're just a bitch who know it all !! Wake up ! HAHAHAHA. dikepret Unee XD. Gue abis baca2 Tumblr lo ceritanya Un.. Trus liat ada komen2 begitu. :))) Well.. Not going to that part, anyhow. How's your wedding preparation ?? Udah beres semua ya ? Aaaak. Envy. I'm still fighting for mine. >.< sobs Anywaaaayyyyyyyy, am happy for youuuuuuuu !

Sat, 03 Mar 2012 12:08:41 -0500

Ish. Ini perempuan ngapain pake ninggalin beginian sih? Kayak ga bisa ngetweet apa BBM aja gitu. *dijejelin kolor* X)))
WAKE UP AND MAKE UP, POE!
*sodorin bedak*
*ama lepensetip*
(Lipstik maksudnya #dijelasin)

Ah ah … ga usah nanyain itu lah. Pusing ‘pala guweh. X)))

Fighting for yours, how?
:|

*ini malah jadi curhat sih kayaknya ya?*
HAHAHAHAHA.

*menunggu*

Here It Goes Again~

Sat, 03 Mar 2012 09:50:56 -0500

Hello, people with no names and Hanna. XD

Anon #1:

Hopefully I’d still be alive then (first thing’s first, right?), and hopefully I got my visa by then - ‘cause you never know, it might take that long for me to get it. OHGAWD PLEASE DON’T. *knock on wood* - so I can be with my, ahem, husband. Okay, now that we’ve got all of those things clear, let us continue. In 10 years I hope I’ll be doing what I love, better if it’s something to do with photography or any kind of creative work. Hopefully I’ll have kids by then too. HEHEHEHEHEHE! I hope that, by then, I’ve travelled to a lot of places - have visited New York and Rome - and have seen loads of music concerts and also a play. Yes, a play. I’ve always wanted to see an actual play. But in one sentence, I just want to be happy. :)

Hanna:

Kelas 9 ituuuuuu … SMP kelas 3 ya? Maklum, jaman saya dulu sebutannya beda. XD
And what kind of question is that, sweetheart? :|
I believe people do change, that’s why when people say,”Don’t change” to me I usually give them a weird - and kind of creepy - look. Yang salah adalah kalau kamu berubah untuk orang lain atau untuk menyenangkan orang lain. Perubahan itu harus dari sendiri loh *mulai merasa agak ke-Mario Teguh Mario Teguh-an*. If you have to change yourself so that others would want to be your friends —- trust me when I say that the friendship isn’t real. Menurut aku sih yaaaa … persahabatan yang baik itu adalah yang bisa menerima perbedaan, bukan yang memaksa/menuntu orang lain untuk mengikuti kemauan mayoritas. That is just not right. Jadi, aku nggak akan ngasih ide soal apa yang harus kamu rubah dari diri kamu, tapi coba ubah kelompok orang yang mau kamu jadikan teman. Changes, no matter how small they may be, has to be for you and you have to feel comfortable about it. If it’s not for either one, then don’t do it. :)

PS: Jangan malu kalo mau negor. Makanya sebelum negor, kamu pake baju dulu biar gak malu. *YUN, PLISDEH! XD*

Anon #3:

Well, right now I’m unemployed because I don’t think I have the time to do anything aside from running here and there to prepare for my wedding in April. But, this mini CV might help. 8D

Anon #4:

Sebelum dijawab, ijinkan saya udah mengatakan betapa menjijikkannya istilah “seleptuit” atau “seleptwit” itu. SUNGGUH. Mungkin orang laen bakal tumpengan ya kalo disebut begitu, tapi - SUMPAH - saya males. Sounds … superficial. Jadi … lain kali boleh ya gak usah menggandengkan istilah itu dengan nama saya. :)

Soal harus ngetweet apa, karena saya juga bukan seleptuit, jadi saya ga tau harus jawab apa. X)))
Tapi kalo kamu di Medan, coba cari aja akun anak-anak SMU di salah satu sekolah negeri kenamaan di Medan. Itu isi tweetnya cuma,”duh„„paNaz bgt c hR iNi” (plus ngobrol pake RT-an seakan berasa lagi BBM/SMS-an) dan bermodal avatar diambil dari sisi atas-agak-menyamping-plus-poni-abis-ngeblow-di salon-dan-bibir-agak-dimonyongin, tapi bisa dapet followers sampe 4-6 ribuan (mungkin mereka ini yang lebih cocok disebut “seleptuit). Bisa dicoba. X)))))))))))))))

that Jude Law. that Jude fucking Law on the bottom right. exactly the Law I drool over for.

Wed, 22 Feb 2012 09:40:39 -0500

HEY YOU! I miss talking to you. :(
And YES, that Jude Law …. THAT Jude Law … That …
*faints*
XD

Jude Law appreciation post I wasn’t planning to reblog...

Sun, 19 Feb 2012 13:36:15 -0500

Jude Law appreciation post

I wasn’t planning to reblog this, but then I saw the last photo (bottom right).
Odeargawd.

Dita Astari Soedibjo to a girl that’s been a paranoid...

Sat, 18 Feb 2012 11:40:00 -0500

Dita Astari Soedibjo to a girl that’s been a paranoid skeptic and cynic for too long, everything that are not those three things scares her a.k.a me.

Thanks, Dit … for being there.
:’)

Dear Whitney,

Sun, 12 Feb 2012 11:20:00 -0500

thank you.

For being a part of my childhood.
For giving awesome music to my ears.
For everything.

I do not know you personally, and this post is probably kind of lame, but knowing that you’re gone brought tears to my eyes.
You, Mariah Carey and Toni Braxton were the only females I listened to when I was a kid. I used to listen to your albums, sang a long, played it over and over and over and over again until the cassette tape got all tangled up and shit. Hehe.
Got the chance to see Braxton’s performance in 2009 and I almost cried when I was there. I guess now I should strike out “Watching a Whitney concert” off my list, huh?
:(

The saddest part is knowing that it’s going to be pretty difficult to find a new singer as awesome as you are, but we got a lot of Ke$ha, Gaga and Minaj coming our way.
Gawd, they’re just hurting my ears!

Rest in peace, Whitney.

I’m so glad I got to experienced your awesomeness.

:’(

PS:

When I was a lot younger, every time I feel really down, this song always makes me feel better. A lot better.

oh my damn god.U-R-SICK.justfckinWAKEUP!u ugly bitch stop bitching 'round. congratulation on hving a good LDR,but,wait up,what 'bout ur FcknIANCEE?u believe dat he did a good LDR 2?d thing is,i just wanna say,i randomly found this tumblr n it's SUCKS.wake up and make up darl:*

Tue, 07 Feb 2012 10:07:00 -0500

Aw, girl. I’m sorry my awesome, happy, committed relationship is shitting on your face. It’s not your fault that you’re born to make others feel better about their lives. Think of that as your purpose in your life.
:)

If you are who I think you are - y’know, that lil’ cunt who says she doesn’t care anymore but still uses her time to stalk me on Twitter/Tumblr/blog - all I gotta say is, at least my fiance doesn’t abuse me mentally (AND physically?) Which is probably why my brain still works perfectly. I’m sorry that you’re stuck with an unattractive douche. NOT.

(If I’m right and you’re wondering how I figured it out, the answer is simple: POOR GRAMMAR. So poor that your grammar is now willing to do anything for food.)

Oh, one more thing, well — actually make that TWO:

Learn how to type properly. Come on, bitch. Seriously. If it’s too hard for you to do that, here’s a tip:
grab that keyboard of your (or just your laptop) then smash it against your head. Repeatedly. Might help. Because if you’re lucky, you’re gonna get a concussion. Trust me, it’s better that way for you. You’re welcome.
“Wake up and make up”? THE FUCK DOES THAT EVEN MEAN? And why the fuck are you calling me “darl”? And, no. Please don’t :* me. I’m allergic to dumb whores. Okay. Now go and jump off a cliff.

Randomly? You randomly found a blog and decided to leave this? No wonder you’re miserable.

That’s all. Gotta go now.

I'm Pretty Sure

Thu, 02 Feb 2012 14:03:00 -0500

… you’re aware of how technology has made our lives easier nowadays. Thanks to Skype, I can see my fiance’s face everyday. Thanks to emails, I can still share stories - everyday if I want to - with my best friend who lives abroad. Thanks to Twitter, I now know what A is having for lunch or that all B can talk about is sex and that C is trying to make people believe that he looks like Bradley Cooper when in real life, I KNOW that he looks like … well, let’s just say, NOTHING like Bradley.

The thing is, because of all that, we tend to forget how to actually communicate.

I’m pretty aware that most of the things that I say aren’t the nicest. They could make other people think I’m weird, a freak or whatever. They could also offend them; because, let’s face it, I ain’t no Mario fucking Teguh. If it’s shit, I’m gonna say it’s shit. I ain’t gonna say it’s rainbows or whatever. It’s safe to say that if you’re looking for sugar-coated words, DON’T. EVER. COME. TO. ME. Don’t even think about it.

And people tend to forget the boundaries between online communication/relationship/friendship and the real ones. I say stuff online and you THINK I was talking about you, you find a way to convince yourself that I was WITHOUT asking me. Then, you get all offended and shit.

Y U DO THAT?

Why is it so damn hard for some people to TALK - not just through 140 characters and stuff - nowadays?

Let’s say one of my good friends (in real life) said/did something that offended me, I’m gonna tell him/her. I’m NOT gonna expect them to READ my fuckin’ mind and just figure it out by themselves. Because there are times where the mistake was made unintentionally. And it’s because I consider them friends. I chose to talk to them about it rather than giving a crazy teen drama or talk about them behind their backs. I don’t treat my friends like that. If I treat you anything like that, well — probably because I don’t consider you a friend.

Like, are you really THAT sure that you’ve never hurt someone unintentionally?
You ain’t no Mother Teresa, darling.

This is why I hate people so much sometimes.
Y’all can turn in to this huge pile of sensitivity and expect other people to handle you carefully ALL THE FUCKING TIME.
When you’re 5 y.o, people might do that.

So it’s not about deleting someone from your Facebook account, unfollowing them on Twitter or whatever; it’s about TALKING about shit before you do those things especially when you know that person (in this case, me) considers you as a friend. And it’s about knowing how to use your mouth.
Properly.

That is all.

And yes, I’m upset.